How is it almost the end of October? I feel like I blinked and suddenly, the leaves have turned into shades of golden yellow, orange and red. I’ve always enjoyed fall. The crisp air and bright hues always gave me a sense of peace. The trees lose their leaves, but they leave a blank slate for beautiful new leaves to form next spring. This October, I cannot help but compare the trees to my…
To say that today was a hard day of parenting would be an understatement. Lots of tears, yelling, more tears. It was just an overall off day. On our way to church there was another blow up. I’d like to say it was from one of the kids, but it was from me. Failure. Thoughts of being a failure as a mother came rushing in. While in church, Jack never seemed to stay quiet…
You’re the best Mommy! Those four words are what I heard as I let my daughter lick the brownie batter. Less than hour before we were in a screaming match over not letting her have ice-cream at 10am. In hindsight I see that to my daughter I really am the best mommy. Me yelling and being short tempered are all temporary and what my daughter focuses on is the present moment. As…
Doing something for the first time is scary. I saw the uneasiness and fear in my daughter’s eyes this past weekend before she ran her first 5k. She did it though. She faced her anxiety in the face and ran a 5k. Her face was beaming as she crossed the finish line. It definitely was a proud mama moment. I admire my daughter for conquering her fear and doing new things even if they…
A fog. That’s the best way to describe my mind lately. The last few months I’ve been in constant motion but without clarity. I’ve had a fogginess that has prevented me from seeing the full picture. The full picture that my life may be messy, but it’s still beautiful. I’ve had multiple triggers that have only intensified my lack of clarity. Triggers that cut deep and open up wounds that…
