How is it almost the end of October? I feel like I blinked and suddenly, the leaves have turned into shades of golden yellow, orange and red. I’ve always enjoyed fall. The crisp air and bright hues always gave me a sense of peace. The trees lose their leaves, but they leave a blank slate for beautiful new leaves to form next spring. This October, I cannot help but compare the trees to my…
To say that today was a hard day of parenting would be an understatement. Lots of tears, yelling, more tears. It was just an overall off day. On our way to church there was another blow up. I’d like to say it was from one of the kids, but it was from me. Failure. Thoughts of being a failure as a mother came rushing in. While in church, Jack never seemed to stay quiet…
Mother’s Day weekend is upon us and if I’m being honest, it’s really hitting me hard this year. When things both good and bad happen the one person I want to tell most is my mom. I can’t call her. I can’t visit her and that hurts. My mom is heaven. This week has been emotional to me on so many levels. Good things have been happening. Some stressful things…
A fog. That’s the best way to describe my mind lately. The last few months I’ve been in constant motion but without clarity. I’ve had a fogginess that has prevented me from seeing the full picture. The full picture that my life may be messy, but it’s still beautiful. I’ve had multiple triggers that have only intensified my lack of clarity. Triggers that cut deep and open up wounds that…
Sometimes words don’t come. Sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and I just can’t do it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck on a hamster wheel, constantly going, but getting nowhere. The last few weeks I have felt empty. I’ve been carrying around a heaviness in my heart. This Friday marks two years since my mom passed away. This Saturday, my son turns…
