Doing something for the first time is scary. I saw the uneasiness and fear in my daughter’s eyes this past weekend before she ran her first 5k. She did it though. She faced her anxiety in the face and ran a 5k. Her face was beaming as she crossed the finish line. It definitely was a proud mama moment. I admire my daughter for conquering her fear and doing new things even if they…
A fog. That’s the best way to describe my mind lately. The last few months I’ve been in constant motion but without clarity. I’ve had a fogginess that has prevented me from seeing the full picture. The full picture that my life may be messy, but it’s still beautiful. I’ve had multiple triggers that have only intensified my lack of clarity. Triggers that cut deep and open up wounds that…
Suicidal thoughts. I’ve had several suicidal thoughts throughout this past week. March is a hard month filled with bittersweet anniversaries and birthdays. No matter how hard I try to prepare, it’s just downright hard. I prepared myself for March. I set up extra doctor and therapy appointments. I scheduled “me” time. Despite my preparation, I was still bogged down and overwhelmed with suicidal thoughts. Suicidal thoughts are something I have lived with for…
Today was a day that I would flush away if I could. It started out on a bad note. I woke up late with only ten minutes until I needed to get my daughter on the bus. As I rushed out of bed, I stepped in a puddle of pee left from my aging dog. Screams. I yelled way too much as I rushed my daughter out the door scrambling to get to the bus…
My baby boy turns two years old in less than a month. Now when I look at my son, I smile, but it also takes me back to a place of deep darkness and chaos. March of 2020 was a roller coaster. That whole year was a roller coaster of emotions. My son was born just days before the pandemic shut down the country and just hours after my mom passed away. Talk about a…
